@Jynx I'm really not sure. It's been over 48 hours of constant thoughts of suicide that i just can't shake, like it's not just thoughts it's visions of seeing it aswell. I'm exhausted and tired of fighting myself. 

I feel that, I'm facing that whole homeless situation again cos of an unpaid water bill and then there's another one due and I just can't cover it. So I've been served with a form that if it's not paid by a certain date then I have to vacate the premises. Why does adulting have to be so hard. Ugh it's all too much effort.