Hi @Zoe7 and anyone else sitting along the shore. The day started horrendously, but after a MASSIVE cry to my GP, I feel much better. This is sooooooo very much what I need - safe social supports. You guys are super awesome, but actually being in the same room as someone (or, in my case, sitting on the floor with my head resting against the leg of the safe someone) is what I really really really need. If ONLY (A) and I could somehow figure out how to connect the way my GP and I do. My GP said again today that she recognises she has no idea how to help me, all she can do is try to keep things steady and stable. I desperately need to connect with (A). My GP is going to email her again today to try and convey where I'm at. I know I don't have it in me to try for therapist-take-eleven. (A) and I simply have to figure it out. As I said to my GP today, (A) and I get along just fine...so long as neither of us speaks! As soon as either of us speaks, the other starts to struggle - I get frustrated at not being heard and (A) gets defensive. When we aren't talking, when I am just snuggled on the couch feeling her hand resting against my back, or when I am standing on my head in the middle of her room, we get along great. So...basically we just need to figure out how to work together in a therapeutic relationship without talking.

Ps. I have the lifejacket and floaties on, that you sent me @Zoe7. Also, I super love seeing you sitting on your rock stack. You are right near the teddy bears that you and @Faith-and-Hope left on the shore, and also near @TheVorticon's sand castle.