Thanks @tyme 

it’s good to be able to get this stuff out. I am reading what is said and listening.

I have read some of the other posts and for the first time I see that other people feel the same or worse even. It does make me feel less of a freak. 

It’s also good to see that others have gotten through it. So I know that maybe I can get through. 

At the moment though I’m having trouble even getting through to the next day.