Hello, I am Rick.

I am extremely embarrassed by my behaviour of late last week. 

I emailed the moderators and asked them to delete my posts. I was in a rage.

I lost my temper. Blew my cool and generally drew myself away from everyone and everything that was positive in my life. 

The reasons for this are not important, what is, I without meaning to caused moderators at the forum to be concerned for my welfare. This shames me deeply. I am not any kind of attention seeker, I've worked way too long as a performing muso to need attention (.Dichotomous I know) 

I am very sorry that I caused you very kind people to worry.

The upshot of everything is that currently I cannot find the hope that was supposed to endure. It was broken. 

I am talking about this now because my Doc suggested I try and push thru the shame and become once again a member of this forum, which in a short period of time has become important to me.

I ask that you accept my apology for poor behaviour.

Rick