Riding a wave

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Shaz51 you aren't on my list of safe hugging people (or parrots) but I super appreciate the sentiment. I like that you are nearby...just not hugging nearby.

I am really really REALLY missing CherryBomb now. The feelings are super giant. I feel super alone and super afraid. I am so stuck. I'm so scared.

I miss (F) (abusive psychologist). I was much safer with him, than I am now. Everything he told me was right. He WAS the only one who would put up with me. He WAS the only one who would provide me with such a high level of support. Now I'm stuck in this muddle with (A) and it feels so so SO icky. I don't see any way out. There's simply no way out now. I so very very VERY badly wish I could pick up the phone and call someone right now. I so VERY badly wish I could. I feel super super super alone. @CheerBear

[CheerBear]

@Phoenix_Rising - I'm coming past to let you know I'm here, even though I'm not there with you now, or really not here in as much of a way as I wish I could be. But I'm here. I'm super stuck and very messy and feeling very alone right now too. I think this kind of works as we're two not-friends, riding out big yucky feelings, so badly wanting something or someone to actually be able to fix it, together but not.

I'm going to sit with my LF and eat dinner, even though the last thing I feel like doing is eating. Then I'm going to lie in the bath as soon as they go to bed, hoping the water eases the aches and pains I have.

I'll be here though, even when I'm not.

[Phoenix_Rising]

@CheerBear I am super glad that you are there, yet not there. I felt bad tagging you - I hardly ever tag anyone on my wave. I super super super badly wish CherryBomb was here right now. I don't feel safe with moderators I don't really know...but at the same time, I am in a real muddle right now. I will ride the wave tonight, and you will ride the wave, and tomorrow we will keep on keeping on - cos that's what we do. We've got this.

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Former-Member can you please check in. I feel utterly alone and super super super scared. Please can you ride the wave with me. I am missing CherryBomb so very very VERY badly. Please can you ride with me?

[CheerBear]

@Phoenix_Rising - I'm glad you tagged me and I know that you don't tag people in to your wave often so I think that shows how much of a muddle you are in at the moment. For what it is worth, I was in the middle of tagging you earlier when a fish with colouring in pencils fell into a heap, to ask if you'd be sleeping in my pocket tonight, because it feels better to think you are.

I also wanted to say that I have seen some comments that I am assuming are from big ships who sail around here that don't really know you, and I've read some of them with a bit of an uncomfy feeling. I can understand why this ocean feels much safer with familiar ships and boats watching over it, especially exceptionally safe and comforting ones like CherryBomb.

We do riding it out as well as anyone else phoenix_rising and we do keeping on keeping on super well too. While we have lots stacked against sometimes, we definitely have these things going for us. And we're doing this together but not. I know for me, this makes me feel a whole lot less alone and I hope it does that for you too.

We have got this.

[Phoenix_Rising]

@CheerBear I think I will definitely sleep in your pocket tonight. Thank you for understanding that not all big ships around here are created equal. Some super safe big ships are aware of this and I so very badly wish the super safe navy had enough money to be able to have super safe big ships here 24/7. I hate how everything comes down to money. I'm really really really missing CherryBomb. I super hope the super safe navy find someone as super safe as her. There are SO FEW people in this world that I feel genuinely safe with and connected with - it hurts so very VERY badly when one of them leaves my world.

Thank you for being my not-friend @CheerBear. I will snuggle in your pocket tonight and we will ride out our respective giant waves together.

[-karma-]

[Faith-and-Hope]

🐢💜💕 ...... @ Phoenix_Rising

[TheVorticon]

Thinking of you both Phoenix_Rising and CheerBear

All this talk of being underwater has reminded me of Freddi Fish and the Case of the Missing Kelp Seeds - one of my favourite computer games as a kid. I googled it and rediscovered a particular moment from the game which is screenshotted below. I'd forgotten all about this until now, but wanted to drop off a couple of spare SuperDuperDookaBookaPolyGizmos in case you need them. I promise that this won't make much more sense when the picture gets approved, and I hope that making sense doesn't really matter. 

(Edited to correct typo)

[NikNik]