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[Dogman]

I have been home now for a few months since my last stay in mental health. I have never given up on myself or trying to get back out in the world. I have come back down off my anti-psycotics  and am back into exercise , eating healthy and trying to get back to some socialising. I sweep the floors everyday and clean the bathrooms and toilets every few days, keep the rest of the house in good order. I think they are just expecting me to clean up after them. I don't want to be at home, I want to be at work and contributing to the family in that way, I am unable to at the moment and so I am home trying everything to get back on my feet, but it seems the harder I try the further away everyone seems to be getting. I see my Psychiatrist regularly and see my Psychologist as we go along. I am at the point where I don't know what to do. I try everyday to put on my best smile and get on with my day, its just getting harder to put that best smile on my face and laugh and enjoy my day when my family is never home anymore and on the weekends they are always doing things without asking me. I know that I have not been easy to live with, when you live with someone who has Chronic complex PTSD and has Bi-polar, it wouldn't be easy.

It feels as though as I am trying my hardest to learn to live again, that everything has changed and I have been left on the curb.  Learning to live again seems to being killing the old me and i don't even know who the new/real me is?!

My Psych's say I am doing well and I am a lot better then I have been in the past, but I seem to be losing my family and I don't know what to say or do.

Dogman

[NikNik]

Hi @Dogman,

Good to see you on the Forum again. Sorry to hear that things are hard at the moment. It sounds like re-connecting with your family after your hospital visit is pretty tricky and even though you're getting good feedback from your psychiatrist, you're still struggling with some isolation and figuring out who you are. 

I noticed that there are some other members who have brought up similar topics. You might find this thread started by @sotty useful to read here.

What about other members? Is there anyone else that has struggles re-adjusting to family life after hospital?

[Dogman]

Hi @NikNik,

I have some similar feelings in far as I feel that I am shifting further away from my family. Part of me wants to go out and enjoy time with my family and part of me knows that I don't want to go out in public. since i have come home from hospital I have had trouble shifting the weight I put with the amount of anti-psycotics i was on. I have no clothes to fit me and i don't want to have to buy new clothes as I know over time I will lose some weight and once again fit into the clothes I have. I do exercise a few times per week and mostly eat healthy. as like to day though I am very down and have had trouble doing the exercise i want to do. on days like to day I have found my self eating more and that makes me feel a little better.

I just have to keep getting out of bed everyday and try my best smile and laugh like it's going out of style, move for a few mintues and see how I go.

Dogman

[NikNik]

Hi @Dogman

Just dropping in to see how you're travelling since your last post.

Hope you're doing well

NIk