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[tyme]

Hey @Flowerlove22 ,

I'm sorry it's so hard tonight. 

I hope to check-in with you either tomorrow or Friday. I have the Peer Group Chat tomorrow evening.

[Flowerlove22]

Why was I born   I hate this world  I have nothing left I remember everything is my fault   I wish I could make one person proud   I am a crap person please hate me 

[Flowerlove22]

@moderator  can you please help me with something?  

[lavenderhaze]

Hi @Flowerlove22,

I can hear that last night was rough

How are you going today? ❤️

[Flowerlove22]

No I'm not okay nothing is okay I am done with everything 

@lavenderhaze  I have been thinking about deleting my account on here   

I am a burden to everyone on here I have hurt or upset  I have no friends on here  

I wish I was a fly  

Nobody can help me I am sick off the helplines shit   

I wish I wasn't born  

I am saying bye/ thanks to @tyme @Jynx @Shaz51  whoever else I talked too  I wish you all the best 

[lavenderhaze]

I am so sorry to hear that things are not okay and you're feeling like a burden @Flowerlove22.

I can assure you that is not the case, you're not a burden on here and you have not hurt or upset anyone.

You're a valuable member and we love connecting with you!

Would you like to share what's happening for you at the moment? Or we can just sit together 

If you would like to take a break from forums for a bit, that's okay too, whatever you need hun ❤️

[Flowerlove22]

@lavenderhaze  there's nothing left in me  I am so empty   all I feel is suicide it's the closest thing to me    I am so broken inside   I am tried off people saying it gets better because it doesn't the helplines don't help  the only person who cares isn't here    I almost quit my job  everything is eating me 

your welcome to sit here because it's your job but you don't have    

I feel like people hate me because who I am  it feels like you guys only have to say nice things   I want peace from everything @lavenderhaze  

[lavenderhaze]

It sounds like there are a lot of emotions coming up for you @Flowerlove22, I hear you.

It must be so challenging to manage everything by yourself, I can empathise with that.

Some periods in our life are so tough, hey? I am sorry if you've felt unheard. 

We do want to provide support and sit with members ❤️

I can assure you with confidence that no one hates you 

[Flowerlove22]

Don't brother mate it's a waste of time 

I am not worthy off anything  

Sorry I waste time I am sorry for everything   enjoy your afternoon 

[tyme]

What's happening today @Flowerlove22 ?

Thinking of you.