Yep it's toast & peanut butter for dinner
@outlander. At least I'm getting some protein.
The training yesterday was easy peasy. I could do it with my eyes closed. There were a number of other people there too. It was also a competency but i passed with no problems. I did some more online training last night. Only a couple more competencies and then I could work. I'm still not in a rush though. I need to go back to the office for a couple of assessments & I have to pay for those so they'll probably be done next month.
I got audited by clink last week & have a reasonable debt to pay off as i underestimated my earning in 2015-16. So I have that, my advance payment and I've lost my student supplement so money is a bit tight atm.
My pyschologist wants to know now that I have stabilised a bit if I'm ready to move onto the more difficult topics such as whats happened over the last few years, past traumas, etc. Both of us don't know how I'll react or cope. She also thinks that it could just be never discussed again, but I know that doesn't change anything, and the likelihood is that at some point in the future the possibility of another breakdown is very high. And could be worse (not sure how. These last four years were pretty awful).
I'm still struggling to trust her even now, but I don't see the point in changing therapists. I don't dislike her but then again I dont know if she's right for me. I only have only had a handful of therapists so how do you know who's good for you?
All that going on in my head and more.
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