Battles

[Dreamy]

Thanks @Jynx ❤️

Slow can be good, I've really slowed things down myself lately. Everyday I'm just exhausted from the second I wake up. Good job getting the car in for a service though. 

I do like Metrik, us it definitely gives game soundtrack vibes hehe. 

I'm sitting on my bed now, trying hard to fight these thoughts. Exhausted and want to just curl up into a ball and cry. Had to go and scoop Casper up and plonk him on my bed with me

[MJG017]

Hi @Dreamy 

I had a busy day so it wasn't too bad.  It was a decent distraction.  Although the group in the morning was frustration I could have done without.  It was nice driving in the car though with the heater cranked!

How was your day?

[Dreamy]

@MJG017 busy is good for the distractions. Sorry to hear the group was frustrating though, definitely could do without that. Heaters in cars are always good on days like today.

My day hasn't been great, things all came crashing down last night so it's just been a really rough day. Just taking things second by second at the moment. 

[Jynx]

@Dreamy how's ickle Casper been, giving you much trouble? Chewed through any of your colouring supplies? 

🫣😝

Yeah slow is needed hey, especially as we go into the colder months!! Hibernation vibes hehe 😋

[Dreamy]

@Jynx I have a pencil with a couple of teeth marks in it, but he hasn't destroyed anything. Oh and he nibbled on my eraser 😂. But he is doing good, he is asleep next to me.

Yes winter and cooler weather means hibernation. Curling up on the lounge with blankets and oodies, snacks and watching TV 😊. 

I've just been really hurt by the service I usually reach out to every night. It's honestly come out of nowhere but now I just don't know if I want to ever bother them or anyone again. I'm running out of safe spaces and now i feel I'm only down to 1. 

[AuntGlow]

@Dreamy Focusing on breathing and distractions sound like wonderful ways to regulate yourself when your thoughts become more intense. Let's take a moment to acknowledge your courage and resilience here. I am so glad to hear you reached out to Lifeline as well - how are you feeling now? ☺️💛

[Dreamy]

@AuntGlow incredibly hurt right now and really feeling like I'm a mistake and a burden on everyone. I had a chat open with lifeline but I just shut it down, I've just given up even trying right now 😞.

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

I'm sorry that positive feeling didn't last very long.

Second by second is still getting through the day.  No one can ask for more than that.  We always do the best we can manage at the time.  If someone thinks we should be doing better, I'm happy to let them have a go for a day or so and see how they go!

[Dreamy]

@MJG017 I had a response typed out for this but then decided to delete it all for fear of it coming across the wrong way. 

Second by second is just exhausting. I'd just like to have a good run for a while, not just a few hours. Maybe one day? 

[Jynx]

@Dreamy aww hun, you've had a bit of a bad luck streak with the crisis lines hey! Means you ought to be due a nice nurturing call soon I reckon. 

For real, it can feel like hope is all gone after something like this happens, because you're probably in the thick of dysregulation and your system is all ooky. 

You have survived this 100% of the times you've been in it before. And hey, you used to survive it without the forums, that's pretty badass!! Everything you need to get through tonight, is already within you 💜

Can touch base tomorrow if you like, take care hun! Caio for now, I bid you adieu!