Morning @MissinTooth, it was an incredibly rough night. Woken up this morning feeling very out of it, sort of just keep fading in and out. Think today is very much just going to be a rest day and trying to be gentle with myself. I've managed to bring up alot of feelings and emotions cos of what happened, I know it was accidental but it still hurts and I feel like I've lost all trust in myself. So today i have to try to remind myself that it's ok and that mistakes happen. Brain just likes to go to that thinking of 'you've failed just like i knew you would, you're useless, you're always messing up, you're stupid and pathetic'. You know how it goes. All those negative thoughts we have to try to challenge in order to change that thought process and allow the positive thoughts in. It's exhausting and such a hard task when one isn't feeling well both physically and mentally. But moment by moment, step by step, breath by breath, it's gotta get easier sometime right?
So here's today's reminder, take each moment, step and breath as it comes, accept that mistakes happen and it doesn't mean you've completely failed, have patience with yourself, things take time and healing can be a messy process and most importantly be kind and gentle with yourself ❤️
How was your night?
